A heavy heart

April 23, 2010 Suzie

I am still trying to write these thoughts each day but every now and then I will write another post. I feel I need to.

right now, I feel like I’m struggling. Life feels hard. One of my closest friends is going through an awful time and most of the time, I don’t have any words and it just hurts.
And then there’s me and God. I need to go deeper with him. i know it, i feel it but I can’t and I just don’t know why. Even last night at worship group I couldn’t quite let the holy Spirit in. Something was in the way.
I have felt for a while that I need to dream dreams with God but i can’t. Its hard.
I am trying to lead others in leading our CU and its a struggle. I need to fight but I don’t have the strength.

I feel weak, I feel empty, I feel inadequate and so much more.
I need to keep my eyes fixed on Him but everything around me is trying to pull my gaze away from Him.


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  • 1. beckie  |  April 24, 2010 at 6:12 am

    Hey baby girl, Having read your blog and seeing that you are doing it again. God will help you get through whatever it is you are dealing with. I know that there doesn’t seem to be a light but you will get there and He will look after you as He always has done. He gives us the strength to get through as long as we turn to Him and talk to Him. Love you loads baby and look forward to seeing you later on xxx

  • 2. inrelentlesspursuitoftruth  |  April 24, 2010 at 3:40 pm

    Keep pressing into Him. He’s only got good plans in His heart for you. I think you’ve gone deeper into His love than you realise!

  • 3. Han  |  May 6, 2010 at 5:04 pm

    Hey girlie.

    Your friend is my friend too, I know we can’t fix the issues but we can stand shoulder to shoulder with our friend and do what we can. Catch her when she falls and hug her when she needs comforting, feed her cups of tea and biscuits or chocolate cos somehow that makes live seem a little better.

    Love you girlie! You rock my socks!!! hehe

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