Like looking in a mirror

January 2, 2009 Suzie

So today i read a bit more of ‘passion for Jesus’ and it was honestly like looking in a mirror. The way Mike talks about his relationship with God is very similar to mine. he talks about appearing spiritual, readign the Bible, praying, fasting, witnessing but his passion for Jesus was fading, his heart for Jesus was growing smaller and this is me so often, too often. I come across like i’ve got everything sorted, like my relationship with God is great when really it isn’t. When really my heart is so far away from Jesus.

Somethgin i reasd jumped out at me and i’d like to share it, hop its not too lengthy!

In the midst of my spiritual coldness and failure I had wondered so many times how God felt about me. I’d even dreaded to imagine that expression on His face when He saw me coming back for forgiveness each time I let Him down.Suddenly I knew, for through the prodigal’s father I glimpsed teh face and heart of God. When God saw me trudging toward His throne with my head bowed in shame, like the prodigal’s father, He was moved with affection and tenderness for me. He was running toward me with joy and excitement. His arms were outstretched, reaching for me, longing to catch me up in His loving embrace and kiss away my guilt and failure.
My Heavenly Father was a watching, running, weeping, laughing, embracing, kissing God! He was an encouraging, affirming, praising, affectionate kind of God. He was a God who loved me so much He couldn’t keep from embracing me. I was the apple of His eye. He was a God who loved my friendship and just wanted me to be with Him. A Father who bragged on me to any one who would listen. A God who enjoyed me even in my failure and immaturity because He saw the sincere intentions of my heart. A God I didn’t have to strive to make happy, because He’d been happy with me from the second I was born into His family. He was a Father who was always cheering me on from teh sidelines. He enthusiastically called me His son.’

Wow wow wow is all I can say! However as i read this I am so conscious that this truth has not yet grabbed a hold of my heart so any prayers for that would be greatly apreciated. God loves me and nothing I ever do, don’t do, say or don’t say, think or don’t think, He loves me and he delights in me. In fact he is singing over me. thank you father for loving me!

One more paragraph cos i think this is where i’m at right now….
‘The Father-heart of God was as thrilled with me-an immature, mess-making, spiritual infant-as with one of His spiritually mature sons who had just graduated from the school of the Spirit. My heavenly Father was enjoying me while I was yet in the process  of maturing, not sighing in disgust and waiting impatiently until I grew up. He loved and longed for me; He felt proud ans was excited over me even while I was feeling short.’

Thank you thank you thank you father! I love you!

May I just encourage you and me to keep going, to keep running the race. No matter what we do, He loves us. Wow!


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4 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Michelle  |  January 3, 2009 at 7:10 am

    Oh wow….. what a beautiful, breath-taking and life-altering reminder that is. I don’t know how many times He’s taught me this lesson, and still, I find myself forgetting so often how much He absolutely adores me and is pleased with me.

    Thank you for posting this, Suzie. It was a word in due season for me.

    And right now, I pray for both of us, that God would ingrain the revelation of His love towards us so deeply in who we are that it becomes part of our DNA — our identity — and that we never live another day with our heads bowed down in shame. In Jesus’ name, AMEN.

  • 2. gabi  |  January 5, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    Wow, how amazing are those quotes! Thankyou so much for sharing them. I say AMEN to Michelle’s prayer. May we take a deeper and tighter grasp this year on the incredible love and pleasure He has in His heart over us! I love you and miss talking to you!

  • 3. mom2olivia  |  January 8, 2009 at 6:31 pm

    God is sooo wonderful. It makes me smile to see others grow too, in truth and wisdom. In His amazing Love and trust. Life is sooo challenging for us, Oh, but Jesus makes it so worth it. I don’t know what I would do with out a savior!!! Praying for God to give you a fresh touch today. Blessings and hugs. Robin

  • 4. Michelle  |  January 9, 2009 at 10:55 pm

    I miss your posts!

    But I pray everything is going wonderfully well for you.

    God bless you, Suzie!


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